I still follow the Life Journal online devotion readings everyday. I just don't always write in the format that I used to. It gives me something to "chew on" throughout rest of the day and something to meditate on while I pray throughout the day. Today, reading in Nehemiah 9 I came across this:

¹ On the twenty-fourth day of the same month, the Israelites gathered together, fasting and wearing sackcloth and putting dust on their heads. ² Those of Israelite descent had separated themselves from all foreigners. They stood in their places and confessed their sins and the sins of their ancestors. ³ They stood where they were and read from the Book of the Law of the LORD their God for a quarter of the day, and spent another quarter in confession and in worshiping the LORD their God. ⁴ Standing on the stairs of the Levites were Jeshua, Bani, Kadmiel, Shebaniah, Bunni, Sherebiah, Bani and Kenani. They cried out with loud voices to the LORD their God.

 This is something that stopped me in my tracks. How often do I spend my prayer time confessing and repenting? A lot of the time I just think of the things I've done wrong or messed up on and ask God to help me fix them. I never bring them before Him and actually repent. It's a big part of what we are called to do when we come before God and I've been slacking. Scripture usually paints a picture in my head. In this one I see thousands of people on their feet crying out and weeping to God for their sins. They also confessed the sins of their ancestors. They brought all the wrong that was done before God and asked for forgiveness. They wanted a clean slate. I want to be able to come before God and not only ask him to wipe my slate clean but to also forgive me for what I have done. Forgiveness He gives. 

Make like a tree

I used to hate gold jewelry. I thought it looked tacky and couldn't stand to wear it. I am now getting to the point where I am attracted to a lot of gold pieces. About a year ago I picked up some larger gold leaf earings from World Market.

 (The picture makes them look silver/ irridescent but they are actually gold... sorry sometimes my iPhone doesn't quite understand me...)
They were definitely something new for me, being used to wearing pretty small studs, but I loved them. The only problem was I always felt like I needed to wear a necklace with them but couldn't find the right style.
Enter my birthday present from my friend Steph, or who I refer to as Pancho. She is amazing. And her amazingness covers the Anthropolgy gift card department as well. When I was browsing the online store I came across something I saw that I could not live without :) Enter the perfect gold leaf necklace. That was made for me. And my gold leaf earings. And makes the world a better place. Period.

It makes my heart so happy.Do you know what else makes my heart happy? Tomorrow will be the last day at my job. I am starting a new one on Monday, working for a couple that is like my second family. I just love them and am so excited to work for them. I have worked at this place since I was a sophomore in high school. It's time for a change.
Something else that makes my heart happy is the book Plans Purposes & Pursuits by Kenneth E Hagin.



This book is so full of truth. Authors that can list their own mistakes and successes so you can see how God works in others lives can give you such a good example for living. I am about halfway through it right now. After spending some time reading last night I just spent some time with God. He has been just dumping His love on me the past couple days and it is so refreshing. Sometimes when I don't know what to pray anymore I just start praying scripture. I was reading and praying Psalms 138 and 139 and man, I just got lost in His love. I've missed that feeling. I am so thankful for a God that just lets us rest in His presence. He amazes me everyday :)



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Don't abandon me for you made me

Today I was reading from ps 138 and these verses brought me to tears. They are my prayer for the day, especially verse 8.
"3 As soon as I pray, you answer me;
you encourage me by giving me strength.
6 Though the LORD is great, he cares for the humble,
but he keeps his distance from the proud.
8 The LORD will work out his plans for my life—
for your faithful love, O LORD, endures forever.
Don’t abandon me, for you made me." (Psalm 138:3, 6, 8 NLT)

Freaking out Friday

Holy Moses.
Today has already been so weird that I would like a do over and I've only been up for 2 hours!
But the good news is:
1-it's Friday
2-one week from today will be my last day at this job :)
3-I am having a fabulous hair day
4-I get to spend some time with a good friend tonite and not worry about waking up early for work tomorrow








Some of the things that make today kinda weird/rough:
1-while I was inside at the coffee shop this morning someone left one of those witnessing tracks under my windshield wiper. I really don't mind if people do that, except when it's pouring rain. Like it is today. I made me want to swear. Not be saved from eternal damnation.
2- tonite I am going to the nursing home to see my great grandma who has suffered from Alzheimer's. The last time I went to see her I left bawling my eyes out, and that was a year ago. They think she doesn't have much time left. She has wanted to go "home" for a long time now, something like 7 years now. It is so hard to know how confused she is and how much she just wants to be in heaven with her husband and son. I love her and I can't imagine what tonite will feel like. Prayers would be greatly appreciated.

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